Thank you for hopping over from Pretty Little Things In A Box!
A little while ago, I saw that Angela from Pretty Little Things in a Box was doing a Spring Blog Hop. I wanted to take part as I love reading Angela’s blog, and I wanted to discover other bloggers who do too! Plus, I have never taken part in a blog hop before and I love expanding my bloggy network!
The one downfall? I don’t like spring.
I know that a lot of people think this is pretty bonkers, but I have a few reasons:
1) I am a light sleeper so as soon as evenings and mornings start getting lighter, I start sleeping less. Even with ‘blackout’ curtains, I’m awake until it gets dark, and awake as soon as it gets light. I do use a sleep mask but that can be uncomfortable, but at least it helps.
2) I’m a student, and to a student, spring only means one thing…the exams are imminent! I’m possibly at the most stressful point in my University career right now, with a mass of deadlines hurtling towards me and I am broaching the start of my 20,000 word dissertation, which currently feels like I’m looking up a mountain I’m about to climb…
3) I am always, always, ALWAYS, without fail, ill in the spring. I’m still waiting for something to bite this year but I know that it will. Between the stress of university and the unhealthy lifestyle it requires right now (endless hours of sitting to read or write essays…) I’m either on the verge of a breakdown or, at the very least, I’m bound to get a cold due to being run down.
4) The weather. True, I do like the lighter days and sunshine, but it is still deceivingly cold on some days and in England we can’t help but constantly be caught out by ‘April showers’, all of which helps to contribute to illness (see number 3 above…)
So, as you can see, coming up with a topic to discuss for a ‘happy’ spring blog post wasn’t going to be easy.
Nevertheless, there are some (perhaps unconventional) things that I think about when I think about spring, which do make me happy, and are more relevant to me now than ever before.
When I think of spring, I think of new beginnings. I think of all of the new things that are born with the spring after the winter. I’m not a big fan of New Year (I’m too sad to see the back of Christmas!) and even though I do make my list of goals (23 before 23) around January time due to when my birthday is, I never usually set ‘resolutions’ or goals for the new year with the same optimistic outlook as others. That’s what comes at spring for me.
As the sun starts shining more and the days start getting lighter, I start feeling more refreshed and motivated. Granted, that doesn’t happen everyday, but just to see the sun shining is enough to lighten the mood! Spring is a time of changes and goal setting, and this year I am experiencing the biggest changes and largest challenges of my life so far.
1. I’m moving.
Moving is probably a headache for anyone, but it’s an even bigger challenge for me right now because it is the first time that I am moving out of my family home. I have lived in the same house for almost all of my life, and it is certainly the only home that I ever remember living in, but right now I’m in the process of packing up all of my belongings (I didn’t know I had so many…) and I’m preparing to move an hour and a half away to West Yorkshire where I will be moving in with my boyfriend James. This is incredibly exciting but also pretty terrifying too, and my main concern is that i have never lived with anyone other than my parents before, so I’m worried James won’t be able to put up with me! Obviously owning a home brings with it a whole host of responsibilities that I will have to get my head round which I’m sure both of us will find pretty challenging to begin with, but I’m sure we’ll muddle through it together. But for now, the main challenge is locating enough boxes to put all of my books in…
2. I’m getting a new job.
Hopefully, that is. Obviously, moving out of the area means that I will have to leave behind my job. I have been in the same job since I started university four and a half years ago, and I have loved every minute of being there. I love all of the staff that I work with and working in a bookshop is possibly the best thing ever. As I am preparing to move though, I am starting to feel ready for a change; as much as I love my job, I don’t see my future being in retail and it has come to the point where I am ready for a new challenge. The last few week has seen me submitting many CVs and filling in several application forms for a whole host of jobs. I still haven’t fully realised what it is that I want to do, but hopefully something will come my way that I feel really suits me and inspires me. Yesterday I received a phone call inviting me to my first interview, right at the time when we were in need of some good news, so I am feeling very excited and optimistic. The job sounds ideal but I am nervous about my first interview in nearly four years. While I am desperately hoping that I am successful, I am trying to keep my ‘realistic’ head on by accepting that it is highly unlikely that I will get the first job that I go for, so I am still hunting to see what other options I have. Luckily, the interview is in a couple of weeks so I have some time to prepare.
3. I’ve come to realise that life is too short.
Possibly the most difficult thing that I am having to deal with right now is the very sudden illness of my Grandpa. It completely came out of nowhere and, to risk putting it bluntly, we have been told there is nothing that can be done to resolve it. Because of this, we are cherishing any moment that we get to visit him in hospital, while internally struggling with the thought that it might be our last. The diagnosis came completely out of nowhere (my Grandpa was previously very healthy, walking the dog three times a day and regularly going on long holidays with my Grandma and their caravan club) and it has really changed my perspective on things. Since his diagnosis, I have made the difficult decision to resign from my position as one of the District Commissioners of GirlGuiding in Cottingham. Due to my relocation, I was resigning anyway, but I have moved the date forward to an immediate resignation. This decision didn’t come easy, but the sudden decline of my Grandpa showed me that life is to short to take on unnecessary stress and at a time when I have so much going on, from the things listed above to my mountain of university work, it was one additional stress that I didn’t need and, ultimately, that I couldn’t cope with. When I had the confirmation email saying that the resignation was sorted, I felt such a huge weight lifted off my shoulders and I don’t regret the decision.
So, possibly an unconventional ‘spring’ post, but this is what spring means to me…not being able to find anything because I’m living out of boxes; an impossible to tidy bedroom because I am overrun by said boxes; a mountain-load of stress caused by university/house-hunting/job-hunting/interviews. But it also means a fresh start; a brand new future and a whole new adventure to look forward to, just like the new things being born into the spring.
Your next stop on the blog hop is Stitches ‘N’ Dreams…enjoy!